disturbed individual, by handkerchief code

disturbed individual

by handkerchief code

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1.	making sense of madness 02:36	lyrics	buy track
you don't get it i'm gone again done something wrong i can't comprehend i got blood on my hands i hid the axe in a lake i cut him into pieces and scattered him across the countryside he didn't give me my money he lied about everything it was messy so i have to get out of here i'll see you around
2.	center yourself 06:58	lyrics
i don't know who my enemy is is it left of the wall or the right side of my heart bleed me out calm me down never done this before the lie of life is that you'll always have a happy ending i'm sad i'm down it feels like i'm upside down calm me down center yourself grab the straps pull yourself up listen to me your mind is against you your brain isn't your friend your lungs are failing calm yourself down different views on life on death on dress but we need to keep each other alive medicine lies sometimes but so do our minds calm me down
3.	ur still a boy 2 me 01:36	lyrics	buy track
you bigot prick get away from me shut your fucking mouth i don't need you you exist to hate me that makes you worthless i don't care what you think i didn't ask for your input so shut up or die
4.	the audacity of this bitch 00:46	lyrics	buy track
you called me out in public you humiliated me so badly and i'm powerless in this moment and there's nothing i can do i won't fight now i feel like such a loser
5.	unrealistic body standards 02:14	lyrics	buy track
i hate it i'm not you i will never be you i want to look like you i'll starve myself if i have to i'll puke and cry fuck mirrors i hate you for being better than me
6.	done being a butterfly 02:00	lyrics	buy track
i'm sick of putting myself out there for you i'm sick of fighting to not cry at any given time i hate all i do is hate and you listen to me rant all the time this can't be healthy for me or you but what else are going to do? lie to ourselves that we're fine i hate you for this but we both need help now
7.	i think i want you 01:56	lyrics	buy track
i've done this so many times before declaring love but the fact is i'm sad i've never been with someone who treated me right i'm attracted to assholes i'm a sinner i'm not gay for you
8.	4 hours in handcuffs 01:42	lyrics	buy track
i just can't get you off my mind say you want more baby i need it maybe it should stop at some point though it can't last forever i can't take it but i want it more stop it feels like hell when i'm with you get away from me baby you must be in pain maybe we should consider stopping
9.	a prolonged plea for help 08:53	lyrics	buy track
did you say something i didn't hear you can you make it all just end? you punish me just for existing and i believe you think it's funny it's really not i keep trying to live in peace but you won't let me live you hurt me you really hurt me so badly and it's all my fault somehow now all i want is nothing now all i want is to just feel something now please just listen give me a reason to go on give me a reason hammer me into the dirt i'm begging you i've been at this for so long and i'm manifesting nothing i feel completely stuck i want it to end so badly i can't escape i'm stuck i've been feeling this way forever and i've tried to tell you a thousand times that it's getting worse i manifest nothing
10.	nosocomephobia 02:23	lyrics	buy track
needles and knives are the same every wall is white everyone looks miserable i despise life when i'm here all alone in a room with my chest open my insides aren't the most bright but the dim light above my bed says otherwise no nurse i'm fine i just want out i just want to be done i want it to end i just need it to end
11.	the subtlety has evaporated 02:43	lyrics	buy track
honey we can't it'd ruin everything i have going on it'd kill my spirt destroy all motivation for me to keep strolling along no time to argue we just have to stop i understand if you never want to talk to me again i really do i led you on i made you think everything would work out and it didn't and i'm sorry it had to happen this way
12.	creatives loathing other creatives for being too creative 02:45	lyrics	buy track
why does it piss me off? that you're so good i preach for acceptance but i'm fucking up too i shouldn't care that you kick ass but i'm a shitty person i guess i want to be you i want to see your level of sucess and it makes me feel bad that it makes me mad i can't exist in a vacuum i must coexist with you
13.	self-inflicted heartbreak 02:01
14.	the feminine urge to end it all 00:38	lyrics	buy track
i'm unseasoned i have my reasons for wanting it but i'm not qualified to die not yet not until the world is mine
15.	blowing out my own candles 11:18	lyrics	buy track
i fucking hate july the last day of the month my day means nothing to anyone i'm alone i've been forgotten the realization that you're worthless it really fucking hurts

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released August 13, 2022

track 2 featuring Lea C.: blurofmemories.bandcamp.com/releases
track 9 featuring whit3corset: funeralparaderecs.bandcamp.com